September 17, 2015

Redefined by Time

I retired - youngish - and am on the second month without the confines of work.  Time is spent exploring what I want from life.  Through this exciting exploration, I am haunted by negative remarks about my own potential, such as, "A zebra doesn't change his stripes" and "admit it, you are too old to change"!  These feel like roadblocks in my quest to do exactly that - change and grow and challenge myself.  Way hidden in the depths of my soul, I believe those quotes, and am struggling to break free of their pointed deletion of a person's potential when they reach a certain age; 62 in my case.


Dreaming is what I do... spending captured time musing about what could be and how I would play a role in this dream.  I have accomplished a few things in my life; am open to change; forgive the lost opportunities of the past, and focusing on what is to be in the future.  ...and yet, those quotes get me in the gut.  Am I fooling myself into thinking I'll grow and try something significant, at my "advanced" age?

So, to prepare for this phase of living, yes living, I took a blogging class at Interlochen Fine Arts Camp in Michigan, where, among other teachings, we began new blogs - mine being The Barefoot Norwegian.

So, I tore our small galley kitchen apart, chose calming new colors, and proceeded to sand, paint, toss and create a pleasant and peaceful place to create meals.

So, I am taking a class with a life coach, where we not only discuss our hopes and blocks, we are creating steps to moving, or redefining ourselves, from this point forward.  I'm the oldest in this class of accomplished women, but also know I'm an equal in life and excited to see where this stage of retirement will lead me.

Baby steps...

8 comments:

  1. This is a great start to your retirement. Remember there are many women that didn't reach their full potential or success until their 60's and 70's! You go!

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    1. Thanks Kim. You are a true motivator - always have been mine. I am reminded of women authors and painters who began at "empty nest" to express their actual self. It is humbling to begin this journey. Love you

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  2. How WONDERFUL! Think about this, "if you didn't know how old you were, how old would you be?" And zebra stripes are superficial. You may look the same, but BEHAVIORS can change. If a zebra could add color, it might or it might not. You are not an animal. You have choices. Make them, darlin! Make them! :)

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    1. Regina, thank you for your support - the life coaching aspect of our friendship is quite refreshing and I feel energized with a slew of choices yet to be made.

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  3. A great start to your retirement. Keep writing. I feel a book stirring in my soul.

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    1. Mark, my dear. You have always supported what I've done - even as far as training with me for DALMAC when you were but 13 years old (remember the 100 mile day when I got us lost by Gregory, Michigan?). I do plan another book, whether it be fiction, nonfiction, or a series of essays. One word at a time. Thanks so much.

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  4. I hope you don't pay any attention to the negative comments about being too old to start something new and now that you're retired you don't have to do anything, why would you. People just don't know any better when their mouths run. Do what you want when you want :) Love you sister!

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    1. Thanks Laura. Yes, I try to tune out the naysayers - and there are plenty, amazingly. I appreciate your comment.

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